have you ever felt like you were used like some sort of a tool? like, you were always there for somebody, no matter what? Be it good times or bad.. except, except that you weren`t really there during the good times. you just get forgotten, quite conveniently, thrown away like an unwanted toy into some forsaken corner. treated like you have an expiry date, and once you were past your shelf life, you`re simply just not needed anymore.

and the only time somebody looks for you, is when bad days have fallen upon that person again. when that person needs to share the woes, get some advice, seek some help. so you give in, and thats what you do. you listen to the problems, gives some comments, and offer to help in whatever way you can. once the problem was solved, everything seemed to be okay again, except that it`s not. you still found yourself out of the 'happiness' picture.

And the vicious cycle just continue. By the way, that's not hope you`re holding on too, it`s naiveness.



bah. random chattering. do ignore.

- very bad day ))=

リオ